So I failed at writing this fic for about 5 months and I'm still not sure if it's what you're looking for since it's a wee bit bipolar. Seriously, I don't know why I had so much trouble with this. But it's probably the best it's going to get and if you actually want to read it, you can find it here:

At my journal (http://rata-toskr.livejournal.com/42420.html) or on A03 (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2346395)